A wish wont come true

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 00:54:54 GMT

R.I.P livejournal

screw this live journal... this is going to be my last and final... too many people use thier ljs to complain about other people and you know what?.. you think the people wouldnt know... i mean come on make it more obvious... but w.e it causes way to much drama and way to many people get hurt... for those of you who dont mess up to whole concept... propts to you... but to everyone else... make ur entries private or something... bc people dont want you complaining about them because of something they did...people make mistakes and life isnt perfect... its alot tuffer to learn about something through a lj then through you telling them... try speaking your mind aloud...

Thu, 26 May 2005 22:40:26 GMT

"I hate how you took everything from me and you dont even give a fuck"

Tue, 17 May 2005 00:02:03 GMT

"drama" is only caused by those who cant keep their mouth shut.... its as simple as that...

end of story

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 23:27:19 GMT

If all good has some evil...
than all evil has some good?

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 22:59:09 GMT

mixed feelings...

lots of stuff happened today...

but to make it short

school
track
spirt stick... hahaha for track (long story about why its funny.. actually no i lied it really short)
home
food
here

well ya... the stuff in btwn i cant tell ppls... sry

but ya...

new methods...

~have a heart~

*most wishes dont come true without help*

sry if some of this doesnt make since... but certain people may get it or not

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 15:20:15 GMT

last day of vacation... less than two months left of school

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 15:27:56 GMT

almost done with the layout... too lazy to work on it now...

April 18th>>
Had a few ppls over
food, presents

April 19th>>
My Birthday
             Track Meet
             Katie Came over
             Shopping
             Food
             Presents

April 20th>>
Track Pratice
             Katie came over
             oh ya... it got up to like 88 degrees today!!!
             pool wasent open.. saddness
             went to the playground with the twins
             soccer was cancelled

April 21th>>
Track was cancelled
             shopping
             cant remember what i did after that
             lauren came over

April 22th>>
Track pratice
             lauren and katie came over
             west greenwich town pizza
             Weave^2

April 23th>>
today... its pouring
             walmart..
             i dunno what else im doing bc its still morning
             lauren is in mass., my dad and little brother went on some boy scout trip,
             and Bobby is still at Merdile Beach (or however you spell it)

April 24th>>
i dunno but bc today is still 23th but its the last day
             of vacation and i have a soccer game...so ill find something to do.

i prob forgot some stuff... but w.e you guys dont need to know everything

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 18:37:56 GMT

almost done with my layout... but i cant finish bc ppls are coming over and i have to do something

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 17:51:03 GMT

ok.. I was working on my layout... but I its annoying me... because I have to use my mom's computer because mine is gay and wont let me log in and i hate me mom's laptop... and i prefere mine so much more... so ya thats about as far as I got for now... I finish it later but i have soccer and then a party so ttyl

oh ya... EWG GIRLS U16 Indoor Team>> 2nd place... woot
ya we had play offs last night from 7:00-11:30ish... we did great we lost to the first place team only by one and they were premiere and we only each had three subs...

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 14:50:26 GMT

ill finsh this later... i dont have time now

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 14:09:00 GMT

dont mind this... im wokring on fixing my layout... but i cant finsh right away do im doing it in pieces

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 00:23:23 GMT

i love kathryn eleanor wallace. shes is so hot n shes wicked cool n i wish i was just like her. she is my role model. :) i love her!

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 23:35:48 GMT

They are just dropping like flies...

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 23:32:57 GMT

wow... i have not updated in a while because it wont let me sign in on my computer and its really weird... this vacation i am going to change my layout to a more springish background...

6 days to my birthday!!!!!! Thats right... i'm gunna be fifteen! wicked excited... i really hope i get my camera...

i had track today than katie and me went to soccer... but before we had macaroni and cheese a box of cookies... that right the whole fucking box, carrots, yogurt, pears, a bag of popcorn, crackers, and milk... haha we ate it all then went to soccer... it wasent our brightest idea ever...

oops i gotta go...

everyone good luck in your band festival tommorrow...
and katie you did a fabulous job in track! and you dont suck at the high jump, you just need to get over your habit of putting your hand down...

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 23:25:16 GMT

I was going to show you all my bueatiful pictures I took but I it's not working and i gave up bc i have soccer and katie is over...

adivce to a certain someone who could use it right about know

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 00:00:39 GMT

Everything changes between a summer, a week, a day, a moment... not everything is always the best and you'll miss how it used to be... but you can not dwell on the past...

As one door opens and another closes your find yourself and who your real friends are,(even those who you left behind may come back),you just have to look for the right key...

Enjoy your life and if something is wrong, fix it and dont care what other people think, live your life like you want to and not how you think others want you too...

It been a long year so far, but if you think about it the school year is three fourths of the way over and summer will be here... Summer is a time to have fun, with no worries, no preasure, and its time for change... do something drastic, something you may not know if you'll like at first, but who cares because you have all summer to decided how you feel about it and decided if you care what others will think or not!!

But for know, just get through it all with a smile and a few good friends...

^^ DEDICATED^^

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 16:22:48 GMT

Yesterday I got up and we decorated eggs for Easter... omgod yes we decorate eggs haha ok sounds gay but it was actually really fun...

than i went shopping at the mall and i saw heather and hannah at this store... Hannah got bangs and thier wicked cute i didnt even recongize her at first...

then lauren and katie came over and we went to the mall for food and to the movies
then i went to the mall again for a shirt for a shirt and skirt for Easter

Today i have to do some homework this morning...
then im going ice skating... im wicked excited...

then lauren and katie are coming over for a bit...
then skiing maybe

but tommorrow is Easter and I have to go to church and then to my Aunts house in Connecticut to see a bunch of people on her side of the family that im not related to and dont really wanna meet... buts its all good... but i got money for EAster ... ahah

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 23:07:39 GMT

wow people really know how to piss me off

anyways... track was easy today... umm I had the "spirt stick" for track yesterday hahah and i dropped it in the middle of the cafeteria and i was like "fuck" lol I dont really get the point of the"the spirit stick" but if its a tradition I will go along with it

snow tonight and tommorrow morning!! yayay!! wicked excited!

soccer pratice tonight... meeting the new people for our team... kind of curious... and one little munchion better go bc I want to talk to her about something... so ya...

I hate people who rubb stuff in ur face than act all innocent!!
I also hate hypocritial people!!!

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 15:28:06 GMT

thats right...

dont talk back...

sit back and relax because you dont know whats coming next....

dont get yourself involed...

find the heart and follow it...

just dont get in other peoples way of living how they want to...
*****************************************
I try taking two steps forward... and i end up taking three steps back...

no matter how hard i try... its just not good enough for you...

if you love something... dont let it go

dont dwell on what you dont have, life for what you do

my problem is i just trust people way to much

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 23:14:24 GMT

ya like your real cool... how about next time to make it more obvious just put my fucking name in it... and hmmm i dont need to take my advice bc im not even friends with you anymore... i personally cant stand you and the feeling is probluary neutral... so ya dont try to talk shit about me in "code" it is wicked obvious ... act just ignore me all together and life would be soo much better... i just try being nice to you bc katie is friends with you... i dont even remember why we were best friends to begin with. and i also dont lie and if i did you wouldnt even know bc i barely even talk to you.... ya im not all talk thank you very much... i act follow through in pratically everything i do unlike some other people i know...and by the way... learn to spell

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 00:49:41 GMT

Track today... lots of leg exercises and stuff... kind of sore... but i push myself because I know I will feel better later and be proud of the out comes...

yay I got a complement from the coach lol i feel loved haaha

Steph and I have decided that we cant stand people who only seem to be "buddy-buddy" with you when ever no one else is around... and completely ignores you at all other costs.

I hate it when people talk about you and they are wicked obvious about it... I mean come on if you have a probelm say it to my face... I'm not a little girl, I can listen for at least five minutes without getting bored from your shit... so if you have something to say, than say it... dont pretend to be all innocent...

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 23:39:18 GMT

wait to ya all see the picture i took from New Hampshire of the mountains and stuff... but i have to wait to this weekend to put them up because my dad took the camera wires and i dunno where he put them and i cant get a hold of him... but anyways...

hmmmm...

Today's Advice -->
Don't make a decision when your emotional. Wait until your calm, than see if you still want to follow out with your plan.

^^DEDICATED^^

Mon, 14 Mar 2005 23:20:06 GMT

super sweet weekend!!
went to new hampshire with family and friends... the first day it snowed like a foot and a half... and the ski area lost power and people were stuck on the lift... then it was out to diner and everything with everyone... haha thats another story... the next day we went skiing in like feet of freash powder and it was really hard exspecially the double blacks... but it was a hell lot of fun... everyone crashed at least once and most the people i was skiing with were really really good so ... ya it was intense.

hmmm today well it was all good until i got blamed for something and i dont even know what they are talking about but i really dont care....

awh i hate how alot of people are def. drifting away... they are turning out to be bad ass bitches and they piss me off wicked bad... thank god i mad better friends with people i werent that close with last year bc if i didnt i would be lost... it doesnt take a heck of alot to piss me off... but it takes a handful to make me want to tell someone about it.. and right now if i didnt get the basics of this out i would... well i dunno what... but yeah... omgod... people dont even have a clue on what i have to put up with everyday... and i dont walk around all depressed and hating my life... so people should suck it up and be happy for what they have instead of frowning and griefing upon what they dont... high school isnt that bad if you dont fall into the "drama" and have a few close friends by your side... well half of that is true for me...

i dunno what i am going to do... i miss it so bad... i want to have that feeling back... i dunno if i can stand anymore time without it.... wow life has its ups and downs... but im trying my best not to fall off the cliff... but people should learn i dont lie anymore... exp. to a friend or almost anyone... unless i know the truth will hurt them worst... way worst than a lie will... than a small white lie is a different matter... know some people need to realize that...

god i hate being ugly... but you know what that doesnt stop me from what i do best... and neither should anyother reason stop anyone else....

sry if any of this doesnt make any sense because im not rereading this... and im just typing as i think

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 22:35:37 GMT

i hate it how people are not honest with you
you think you know someone until you learn something that you would never think of
i learned alot today and i dont think i will ever look at these people the same way ever again
i miss the days of the sand box when there were not so many other factors you have to key into everything...
i fucking hate high school... i want to get it done and over with... only three and a half more years to go
until then i dont know how i am going to deal with everyone's drama... when they dont realize how lucky they are
so people just dont think about how other people have so many other things to worry about than if a guy notices them or if thier hair looks ok... for god sakes some people dont even have hair... how do you think they feel??
i need a paddle so i can go hit people in the head and knock some sense into them... if you make the "biggest mistake" well all you have is to blame yourself... bc you should of thought about what you were thinking before hand... people bring problems to themselves...
real drama--> you have a illness and you are gunna die in a month or less... now thats real drama....
or there is someone out to get you or someone is trying to hurt you... now thats drama...
but no matter the reason there is no reason to hurt yourself bc of depression.... if you are sad or something talk to someone... cool down
too many people make choices when they are emotional and those choices usally turn out wrong...
plz think before hand...
I love you all and dont know what i would do without you

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 00:42:04 GMT

Saturday --> soccer, then katie stayed over...
Sunday --> katie and me went to church, yawgoo,and open houses (just for the fun of it)...
Monday --> katies house
Tuesday --> walmart... where i happened to run into katie...(go figure)lol
Wendesday --> katie's house... then maybe some shopping with katie...

thats just sad... you would think we would be sick of each other by now...